Yet again...another year follows 2009 homo sapiens welcoming it in a same mundane way of partying and dancing gay abandon. Taking about resolutions and changes within self and society. How ironical yet I marvel the actor within these people...How well they mask their hollowness and the emptiness with huge talks and considerations towards the society.
In this world of 100 millions of persons I does not even form 1/4th part of it...As an individual i might be tied in many relationship, my relationship with the supreme power with the environment and with oneself.
Yet i fail to influence anyone, my existence is of no significance to anyone except my family and close kins. Even my peers left me behind and to them i am just another girl who was with them like any other. In my 20 years of life with so many feathers to my caps and laurels to my name, I feel so wasted something within says that I haven't done anything fruitful till now.
Normally I feel very contended with my self but there are times when emotions and conflicts tear me apart. I can feel the pain of heart being clawed and destroyed. My life so full of love and warmth yet i can feel the stench of hatred and lack of love. I feel so full with thoughts of optimism and feel the halo of enlightenment but at times I feel as hallow as a corpse totally eaten rotten and decayed.
I'm on a constanst combat with myself about good and evil, light of knowledge and darkness of satin, real and fake and contentment and wandering. When will I get these answers in my life
when will i experience the bliss of absolute contentment? when will I be able to travel beyond expectations ?When will I will be able to be a significant part of the world?
WHEN? WHEN ? WHEN ?
nice one amb
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Artfully written!!!
ReplyDeleteWhat you wrote made me ponder over a few facts, truths and notions of life.Here are my conclusions. (I know my answers would not satisfy you but thats how it should be.Once you are satisfied, you stop growing)....
Absolute contentment...Firstly, there is no "absolute" unit to measure absolute contentment. Absolute contentment for me could be a date with Katrina Kaif but for you it might mean attaining salvation under the bodhi tree. It is a term coined by us, i.e. frequently erring humans.
Beyond expectations...Whose expectations???Your own?? Or of your near and dear ones?? Whatever little I have observed has taught me that we ourself know our true potential.So it is our own expectations we have to meet.Once we do it, we raise the bar and set higher goals.This leads to our personal betterment.But in the process, we must not forget to celebrate our past achievements or the "feathers in our cap" as you put it.
Significant part...Close your eyes and think of a person whom you consider a significant part of the world. Now think of a person who is a significant part of YOU.Imagine they both are trvelling in a sinking boat. If you get an opportunity to save one of them, who would you save??
Spending 10000 days with 1 person is far better than spending 1 day each with 10000 different people.
MORAL:
You can experience the bliss of absolute contentment everyday from today.
You will never trvel BEYOND expectations because you will always expect MORE.
I hope that you become a significant part of the world some day. But I assure you, for some people, YOU ARE THE WORLD!!!